I'm leaving in a few hours but I still haven't talk to him yet. I don't know why I'm feeling so anxious. This is the very first time that I feel this way when I don't talk to someone for 26 hours. Plus these days I'm having this weird feeling I'm slowly losing him. Maybe just because he doesn't seem to reply or react to any of my Fb post on his wall, my status, photos or links as much as before. I've always dislike when a guy keep repeating their feelings toward me to me too often but when you do it I actually pretty like it. Now that you've lessen the amount of all those lovey-dovey-mushy-mushy stuffs, I feel awkward. I guess you've always been treating me good and now I'm like a spoilt brat;not having you being concern about me as much as before feels like I'm neglected. I know you still have the same feeling. I guess I'm too used to receiving lots of Fb notifications related to you. I love it when I receive a notifications saying things like "R*** Z******* likes your status". Now when I click on that little red sign on the notifications, it's hard to find your name. I don't know why. I'm sorry for bugging you around and making a fuss about such a small issue. I guess having you bugging around my Fb wall and spamming my Fb notifications is already like a habit. Thus when it all slowly decrease I feel really awkward. I know that our plan didn't work out. Like I said, there's always a chance in the future if we were really fate to be together. And I believe there is. I know hearing this from a fourteen year old girl is just like a fairytale and to some adults the situation I'm facing right now is just a matter of puppy love and it will go off sooner or later. Well I have a sister who is still happy with her boyfriend of 5years and they met each other whe they were 15. Ok, minus one year. That's it. If we know how to work it out and balance our time with studies, family, friends and school, why not? I hope you're reading this R. I know you still haven't read the June 14 post on my blog. That's one of the stuffs I'm talking about right now. That you seem to be not as concern about me as before :(

This is basically where Hanisah blogs stuffs that she find to be intriguing or the stuffs that has happened to her. She loves reading Neil Gaimen's books and watching Yasmin Ahmad's films. Hanisah is also insane over acapella and filipino/filipino american (I know, you don't need to know that). She plays the piano. Watching musicals and plays are her thangzs too.


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